A Glimpse Of Her! (Episode 10)

 

After reading, Casey burst out crying again. She decided not to listen to the condemning inner voice.

The next morning, she went to see Pastor Ben and told him about her addiction to masturbation and some bad lifestyles she had cultivated.

In a conversation with Pastor Ben…

“Masturbation is a terrible addiction that needs the right knowledge to get over it. When I was younger, I used to masturbate every day. It weakened me, it made me depressed to the point I took anti-depressants pills every day, because I knew the masturbation was tearing me apart.”

“Know this Casey, there is no one trapped in the act of masturbation that he or she is proud of and that is why most people tend to be secretive about it, which is the greatest power the devil or the masturbating power has over them. Casey, you should be grateful to your mum for appearing in your dream, you are half way out of the battle.”

Casey had her head bowed in pain…

“Over the years I have counseled people on the issue and my first advice has always been for them to open up to someone close, because it makes them accountable. In my case, I confided in my beloved wife of blessed memory about my struggles with masturbation which turned out to be the best decision I ever made as my wife showed me unconditional love and sympathy.”

“She didn’t judge me, rather she would pray with me. Do you know how that must have felt for her as a married woman? I was so deep in masturbation that I would deny my wife intercourse, instead I will leave her on the bed to go watch pornographic videos. She caught me red handed masturbating on several occasions. That was how bad, the demon of masturbation was controlling my life.”

“In my case, it was my uncle who I lived with in my early days that made me start masturbating. He was a matured bachelor, who brought different ladies home. I would sleep in the same room where he would be having intercourse with different ladies. At 14, I couldn’t approach any lady to make love to so instead I helped myself out.”

“I continued this for 30 years, but it got to a point when I told myself, no more. It made me a loner, my marriage was suffering. I was worse than someone addicted to hard drugs, but I eventually got out of it, when I got the inspiration of the full meaning of masturbation. I coined a sentence out of it. ‘MASs TURBulence to destroy a nATION’. I constantly told myself that MASTURBATION was a Mass turbulence the devil had sent into the world to destroy nations, and since I was a “Holy nation” like the Bible referred to me, I was not going to let the devil destroy me.”

Pastor Ben said all these to Casey.

“You have to say no to pornography Casey. Your choice of friend was very bad. Find yourself a believer as a friend. Stop dressing provocatively to attract men. Realize the Bible actually does condemn masturbation. Don’t use weird mental tactics to justify this sin. Pray to the Lord and ask for forgiveness of sins and spend time with the Lord and His Word” Pastor Ben added and prayed for her.